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Sunday, July 24, 2022

Sabotaging Yourself ~ Your Saving Grace Comes in the Guise of a Queen

 


Someone has a desire, a wish, that is at the heart of all they do and think about and probably plan for.  The thing is, they might be sabotaging themselves, foiling their own plans and future.  How?..."Why" might be kind of interesting here as well.

Here's what the cards are going to tell us...

From here on out, I'm going to speak directly to the person this reading is intended for, so I'll be using the pronouns that point in that direction.  If this is NOT a reading that is connecting with you, disregard the personal pronouns, but think about the people you know and if this reading could pertain to one of them. 

You aren't going to be going anywhere, or getting nowhere, either or both.  You will be feeling the frustration over your lack of progress, and the reason for this lack of progress may be the fact that you're trying to keep someone in the dark.  This gives the impression of a person working toward a goal, but keeping it a secret, or at least secret from certain people.

The energy is filled with the idea that you're hiding something from someone.

This makes for a very tense atmosphere, because keeping secrets or ulterior motives unrecognized takes a lot of energy.  You always have to be on your guard so you don't slip up.  This may also be giving you what appears to others as a very defensive attitude.  (There's part of you that must realize this defensiveness is a childlike response to doing something you know you shouldn't be doing, or doing something that you're pretty sure most of the people in your life would disapprove of...  This is called a "conscience", by the way, but it's masquerading for now as defensiveness.)

The phrase "wish upon a star" came to my mind.  But it lacked the whimsical fairy tale energy usually associated with it.  Instead came the idea that something will need to be sacrificed if you want to get what it is you desire.  My first response was a shudder:  what are you willing to sacrifice?  who or what will it hurt, if anyone?  and what will the lasting ramifications have on you?

There is a saving grace to this scenario and this reading.

This saving grace is an individual.  It's represented by the Queen of pentacles, and my first impression is a female, of course.  She's quiet and wise.  She's nurturing and grounded and exudes a certain calmness.  She also doesn't suffer fools and will be the first to tell someone if they're doing something that is not a good idea.  Okay, I'm mincing words... she will not hesitate to tell you when you're being stupid, and she doesn't care what kind of response you give her, she'll tell you anyway.

She's your saving grace.

You can be upset with her for being honest and somewhat blunt, but don't dismiss what she says.  If you do, you won't get anywhere (the reversed chariot); and you'll find yourself trying in vain to explain yourself (7 of wands); and you'll discover that there is someone who can uncover your secret or figure out your motives after all (the reversed High Priestess).

This Queen is your saving grace, know that and respect it, because the universe is not giving you a second chance here.




Saturday, July 23, 2022

And the story continues ~ There is a definite change of plans for an unexpected future

 

Yesterday I laid a group of cards and got the frame work for their story, you'll find that here, in this blog post:

These Cards Need Time to Flesh Out Their Story


The story continues to unfold:

There's someone who's been very focused on a specific very complex and involved goal, so much so that they sort of have tunnel vision about it, this goal possibly centers around education and work.  They know that they need this kind of focus and dedication to make this happen and reach this new plateau.

What's happened, or about to happen in their life, is totally unplanned, it's not something they intended to happen or even thought about at this point in time.  This is just something that the universe sort of drops on them unexpectedly, something totally out of the blue.  (Cupid does that, you know, you have no intention of meeting anyone, or falling in love, or becoming involved, and then -- bang -- there you are).

There's still the idea of something happening very fast, accelerated energy all around, a whirlwind still; and this time the cards are telling me that this is all driven by passion, and someone speaking their truth, either to someone else, or to themselves, or to both.  It's an "aha" moment of clarity and realization.

And this does indeed change everything.  The future is spinning, realigning itself; there is a change of plans.

There's still lots of decisions to be made, but the cards are telling me that they're no longer being made for one person by one person.  These plans involve two people now.  Groundwork is being laid for the future.




Friday, July 22, 2022

These Cards Need Time to Flesh Out Their Story

 

I just laid these cards very early this morning, when I was finished watering the flowers, and I was hot and sweaty from being outside in this dark, barely light, overcast, 90+ degree morning.  And here they are.  As I turned each one, I spoke its message out loud, doing my "scratchings" in my notebook, as I usually do, so the story already has a frame.

Today I'll give you a picture of the cards and the "outline" of their story, those first words that came to me with each card.  Then I'll let the cards lay, as along as it takes, so they can tell their story, so they can give us a more complete picture.




8/pentacles:  someone at work

The Fool:  the beginning of something new

Ace/cups:  a relationship

Knight/swords:  happens fast, a whirlwind

Wheel of Fortune:  changes everything

7/cups:  a lot of decisions to make

I can't wait to hear more of the story.  If this resonates with you, keep thinking about it, the universe (and spirit) will connect the dots, just like magic, works every time.


EDIT: 07-23-22

The story continues to unfold:

There's someone who's been very focused on a specific very complex and involved goal, so much so that they sort of have tunnel vision about it, this goal possibly centers around education and work.  They know that they need this kind of focus and dedication to make this happen and reach this new plateau.

What's happened, or about to happen in their life, is totally unplanned, it's not something they intended to happen or even thought about at this point in time.  This is just something that the universe sort of drops on them unexpectedly, something totally out of the blue.  (Cupid does that, you know, you have no intention of meeting anyone, or falling in love, or becoming involved, and then -- bang -- there you are).

There's still the idea of something happening very fast, accelerated energy all around, a whirlwind still; and this time the cards are telling me that this is all driven by passion, and someone speaking their truth, either to someone else, or to themselves, or to both.  It's an "aha" moment of clarity and realization.

And this does indeed change everything.  The future is spinning, realigning itself; there is a change of plans.

There's still lots of decisions to be made, but the cards are telling me that they're no longer being made for one person by one person.  These plans involve two people now.  Groundwork is being laid for the future.


This outcome also appears in a new blog post:

And the story continues: there is a definite change of plans


Thursday, July 21, 2022

Today's Video Readings from Arizona

 


Take a Break/And Delegate





Take a Stand/Voice an Opinion






Make a Break/Walk Away






Today's early morning readings are full of on the spot intuitive perceptions and advice. Welcome to Arizona and my home. This morning we dive into a grid of cards and explore relationships, finances, personal connections, and life. If you enjoy this video, or find it helpful, please be sure to Like & Subscribe so that other people can find it too. And if you haven't already purchased my new book, The Little Handbook of Spiritual Awakening, you can do that using the link below. If the Spirit moves you, leave a brief book review or a few words at Amazon, that would be amazing! Please and thank you in advance!






Wednesday, July 20, 2022

Getting the Most from a Tarot Reading ~ 7 suggestions + my commentary

 

  • 1. Every reader is different. Find one you vibe with.

Not every tarot reader is going to practice in the exact same way. Some might ask you to shuffle the cards, some might prefer a conversation before your reading, some might ask you to just sit in silence — and that’s OK.

“There’s no one way to read tarot,” says Ashley Collom, 27, a tarot card reader in Austin, Texas. “Be willing to take someone’s lead. The reader has a strategy.”

But since tarot is about establishing trust between yourself and your reader, the key is finding somebody with similar energy and purpose.

“With any type of divination, it’s really important to vibe with or to like or to find similarities with this person,” says Marguerite Gioia Insolia, 35, a Los Angeles-based reader. “It’s about that person’s intention and your intention in your reading. It can really change the information you get. It’s not that the cards themselves are going to say something different, it’s about the translation.”

*Note/Amythyst... This also applies to clients, every client is different.  Not every reader can read for every client, and it's okay to be honest and upfront about that.  There have been a handful of times when I realized that this just wasn't going to work with this individual, whether it was just a conflict with personalities, or energy, or just a bad vibe "spirit says leave this one alone" kind of thing.  It's okay for a reader to say, "I'm sorry, I just can't read for you, I think it would be in your best interest to find another reader", and this is the ethical thing to do.

  • 2. Show up with an open-ended question.

A yes-no question can often “stump the reading,” according to Collom. She instead recommends coming with a question that's less restrictive. That way, you’re opening yourself up to a conversation with your reader that’s more rich and nuanced.

“Usually this means your question starts with a ‘what’ or ‘how,’” she says. “For example, if someone wants to know, ‘Am I going to get married to so-and-so?’ The way to make that open-ended is, ‘What do I need to know to enter a happy marriage with so-and-so?’ It creates a more rounded-out conversation.”

However, if you really are dying to know something specific, just know that type of question might not lead to a simple answer.

“Because tarot is so detailed and the deck (has) all facets of life within it, you can really ask any question,” says Insolia. Your answer just might not boil down to something as straightforward as “choose that.”

*Note/Amythyst... 1) You can do yes/no questions, designating specific cards for 'yes' and specific cards for 'no', such as even numbered cards for yes and odd numbered cards for no, but you know what, a pendulum works just as well for this and is actually the more in-tune divination tool for yes/no questions. 2) Sometimes no question is needed, and I've done incredible readings with the opening line to spirit: "Show me what this person needs to know". 3) Be prepared for a client to not be happy with the answer they get for very specific questions.  Sometimes a client is not looking for an answer  to a question; they're looking for validation to the answer they want.

  • 3. Don't like what you hear? You have the power to change it.

Do not feel crippled with fear if your reading didn’t contain good news. As Insolia says, “Tarot doesn’t have any power over you.”

“The reading is a timestamp of what’s going on energetically around you, your circumstances and what you’re asking about,” she adds. “People might walk out thinking they have no power or agency over these events in my life, but that’s never true. You always have the ability to change how things are going to happen.”

*Note/Amythyst... This is absolutely true.  The future is not set in stone, it's fluid, always fluctuating and changing with the help of our free will.  This is a disclosure that I've decided to include with every reading from now on: 
 
"Our future is not set in stone, it's fluid, and it keeps evolving according to choices that we make and directions that we take. Always remember this, that whatever answer you are given with any form of divination, there is always the probability that people's decisions and deliberate changes that they make in their lives, or ideas, or plans can alter the future. So often people seem to resign themselves to a divination outcome as being the last and final word on what's going to happen in their life. It is not. It only shows you a picture of how things are NOW, at this moment."

 Also, just to add, a tarot reading is timeless.  It can sit at a blog post for five years and suddenly one day an individual will stumble upon it, know that this is the moment in life that you need to hear this message, and it will be relevant for you.

 

  • 4. Time-related questions are tricky to answer.

While many of us want to know if something will happen in the future, sometimes the more urgent question is when. But tarot readers might not have those answers.

“Time is tricky because time is a social construct,” Collom says. “There are ways to tell or give people hints about time, (and) there are certain suits that correlate to certain times, but I’m always hesitant to give people time frames just because it is such an ephemeral thing.”

“Also, very rarely (does) giving someone a time frame makes them feel empowered,” she adds. “It makes them feel stressed out or claustrophobic about an impending time frame.”

*Note/Amythyst... I do agree, time is a tricky thing to predict, because as we've already established, the future is fluid and there are so many things that can change the outcome before a predicted date.  I do have to say, that on those rare occasions that timing makes itself known to me, it always comes as seasons, nature's time clock.

  • 5. Be forthcoming.

Maybe you’re holding back a little as you establish trust with your reader. (Understandable.) Or maybe you think you need to be secretive so your reader can “prove themselves.” (Don’t be that person.) Just know that the more you share with your reader, the more your reader will share with you.

“You don’t have to be cut off from giving detail,” Insolia says. “So if you ask, ‘What’s going on in my relationship right now?’ I can say, ‘It started off good, but now there’s a lot of confusion going on. These are the possibilities for the future.’ But if you say, ‘Well, he had an affair,’ I can look more deeply into what happened there.”

Collom agrees: “There’s an element of people feeling like they need to be mystic or esoteric about the process, and if we could just get into the nitty-gritty faster — ‘This is what I want to know, this is why I want to know it and this is what I’m feeling’ — we can dig into it much faster. It’s much more effective to have and communicate clear takeaways you want out of the reading.”

*Note/Amythyst... I have to disagree with this one.  Knowing exact details makes me feel boxed in as a reader, it's somehow restrictive for me.  I get the best readings when I know *Nothing*.  "Let the cards tell the story," I always say, instead of having the story fed to the cards.  As an example, if there is problems in your relationship and the cause is an affair -- the cards will tell you this.  Oh, ya, in no uncertain terms and very early into the reading.

  • 6. The death and devil cards are not (usually) omens.

So your reader pulled some cards that look scary. Don’t freak out. They aren’t what you think they are.

“The death card can be about physical death, sure, but that’s so, so, so rare,” Insolia says. “It’s really about transformation. Let’s say you’re asking about your relationship and the death card comes up. It doesn’t necessarily mean the relationship is over. It’s that there’s a transformation happening and there’s going to be renewal on the other side.”

And the devil card?

“That’s about temptations — any place in your life where you know you need to break that pattern and you’re not,” she explains. “It’s more of a reminder of you being more authentic and true to yourself.”

*Note/Amythyst... I have to say that this is spot on, I agree completely.  I also have to add that the story these two dramatic cards have to tell will be expanded upon with the cards surrounding them.  And as an intuitive reader, someone who doesn't believe in just a set meaning for the cards, but the cards as a trigger for my own clairvoyance, I have seen unusual things through the face of these cards.  As an example, the major arcana card Death has actually given me physical goosebumps as I realized that this card was representing a third party voyeur to someone's life, a third party that didn't have their best interest at heart.  Everything comes, after all, not from the paper cards laying on the table, but from the mind and intuition of the reader.

  • 7. Tarot often helps confirm what you already know.

Sometimes people seek guidance from others to validate what their gut is already telling them. Tarot readings can help with that, too, Insolia says.

“For a lot of us, we already know the answers to a lot of our questions. But what tarot can do is give you this beautiful affirmation to build confidence in yourself, to build intuition, to start trusting yourself. And sometimes that’s all we need.”

*Note/Amythyst... I totally agree.  I've read for several people who were looking for validation, and if this is helpful to them, then I consider the reading a good one.  And this is an excellent way to end this blog post.





The source for this post:

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author: Bryanno Cappadona

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Monday, July 18, 2022

Your Questions: Which direction is my life suppose to go?

 


Before we start...

Let's talk about "the future"...

Our future is not set in stone, it's fluid, and it keeps evolving according to choices that we make and directions that we take. Always remember this, that whatever answer you are given with any form of divination, there is always the probability that people's decisions and deliberate changes that they make in their lives, or ideas, or plans can alter the future. So often people seem to resign themselves to a divination outcome as being the last and final word on what's going to happen in their life. It is not. It only shows you a picture of how things are NOW, at this moment.

  • With that said, let's see what the cards have to say:



Your question:  Which direction is my future suppose to go?

As I said in the video, The Fool is all about somebody starting out, someone at the beginning of a journey and adventure,  There is the feeling of someone who is idealist, if naïve, someone who is open to life's incredible opportunities.  This character might be starting out without a game plan, but they make up for it with enthusiasm.

The cards are telling me that somewhere along the line on this journey, you became sidetracked, distracted.  This distraction came by way of an impetuous and spontaneous individual, or this represents you, yourself, and these are your traits.

The result of this new path, this detour, is that it changed you somehow, or it changed the circumstances and people you came in contact with enough to affect relationships with family and friends.  It may have created some defiance or stubbornness, leading to friction and maybe even confrontations.  In the long run this period would have been reflected by estrangements with certain individuals, or at least serious falling outs.

Your Question: Which direction is your life suppose to go?

The Answer:  Your life is going in the direction of a new relationship, a new connection.  

I most often feel drawn to a romantic relationship, a life partner, a soul mate, someone who's influence and presence bring everything into focus, someone who's energy radiates positivity.  Someone who changed your life and gave you a new perspective, someone who put you in a place to make wiser decisions, to take into account consequences -- both good and bad-- for any future decisions.

This does not always have to be a romantic relationship (though I'm leaning heavily in that direction for you); sometimes it can be a friend, an acquaintance, or a mentor who dramatically changes your life and permanently leaves their imprint.


Tarot
Your Questions

(free mini-readings)

*Note: Please don't give me any information surrounding your question, that makes my job harder. I prefer to go into a reading with no information and let the cards tell their story.

I'm going to continue a practice I started a while back. If you have a question that you would like me to answer anonymously in a tarot video, email me at --witch_of_endore@yahoo.com -- and there will be a chance that I could select your question. I can't promise to answer every request that comes in, but I'll do my best.

Of course, your question may be very personal, and it will be answered with complete anonymity. It's almost a sure thing that as personal as a question will be, there's no doubt that it may also have a universal appeal and could help other people in a similar situation.

[EDIT] I've had several people inquire if they can ask me any type of question, not just a personal tarot question for themselves. That would be fine, ask away, whether it's tarot related or not. If there's something that you're curious about, if there's something you've always wanted to know, whether related to tarot, spirituality, witchcraft, wicca, magic, or something else that you've been wondering about. Send me your question at my email: witch_of_endore@yahoo.com, and there may be a chance that I'll select your question for a video.


Sunday, July 17, 2022

Your Questions: Will he come home to me and his kids and find peace within himself?

 

     

Before we start...

Let's talk about "the future"...

Our future is not set in stone, it's fluid, and it keeps evolving according to choices that we make and directions that we take. Always remember this, that whatever answer you are given with any form of divination, there is always the probability that people's decisions and deliberate changes that they make in their lives, or ideas, or plans can alter the future. So often people seem to resign themselves to a divination outcome as being the last and final word on what's going to happen in their life. It is not. It only shows you a picture of how things are NOW, at this moment.



  • With that said, let's see what the cards have to tell us


Your Question:

Will he come home to me and his kids and find peace within himself?

The Answer:

At this time, there is something unresolved.  This is something that needs to be taken care of before anything can proceed and everyone can move forward.   If it's not addressed and the issue fixed, nothing will change.

The King of Wands is usually all about control, but this King has apparently connected with a more fluid, gregarious, wild-side.  When this happens to someone, it usually means that not only will thier behavior and patterns abruptly change, they will be learning new things about themselves and the world around them as well.  It's a time of discovery; it's a learning experience.  And quite frankly, it has it's moments of delight and wonder.

With the idea of "limbo" that this man and yourself are caught in at the moment, there seems to be a total turn about, a different direction to dreams and goals and wishes.  I get the feeling that what someone thought they wanted might not be what they actually want anymore.  

There is the idea of someone finding balance and seeking enlightenment.  The cards are telling me that this man may be trying very hard right now to find this balance in life and enlightenment that will change his future.  It feels as though he is standing on a threshold. Sometimes this is a solo journey, and sometimes this is a journey that is taken with a kindred spirit.




Tarot
Your Questions

(free mini-readings)

*Note: Please don't give me any information surrounding your question, that makes my job harder. I prefer to go into a reading with no information and let the cards tell their story.

I'm going to continue a practice I started a while back. If you have a question that you would like me to answer anonymously in a tarot video, email me at --witch_of_endore@yahoo.com -- and there will be a chance that I could select your question. I can't promise to answer every request that comes in, but I'll do my best.

Of course, your question may be very personal, and it will be answered with complete anonymity. It's almost a sure thing that as personal as a question will be, there's no doubt that it may also have a universal appeal and could help other people in a similar situation.

[EDIT] I've had several people inquire if they can ask me any type of question, not just a personal tarot question for themselves. That would be fine, ask away, whether it's tarot related or not. If there's something that you're curious about, if there's something you've always wanted to know, whether related to tarot, spirituality, witchcraft, wicca, magic, or something else that you've been wondering about. Send me your question at my email: witch_of_endore@yahoo.com, and there may be a chance that I'll select your question for a video.


Friday, July 15, 2022

Your Questions: Will I have a relationship with my ex-girlfriend again this year?

 




Your Questions ~ free mini-reading

I'm going to start off first by addressing the idea of being "friends with benefits" with an ex, and this is coming, not from the cards, but from my own observations and experiences over the past 65 years.

Frankly, this doesn't work; this never works.  This is an awful idea.  You're either in a relationship together, or you are not.  Keeping one foot in and one foot out of a relationship creates a state of "limbo".  

First, I have never seen such an arrangement with an ex-romantic partner where the emotions and feelings, the memories, and the original connection can just be put aside.  It's not humanly possible for most people to lay these emotions down and focus solely on the animalistic function of sex with an ex-partner, someone we loved, and someone that we probably still have feelings for even if we don't admit it, even to ourselves.  Human beings aren't wired that way.  From an evolutionary standpoint, we're inclined to create meaningful, sentimental, and deep emotional connections that will keep us together to raise children and grandchildren -- and even when this doesn't work, or isn't realistic, we keep trying to do it anyway.

With this scenario -- "friends with benefits", one or both of the partners may have in the back of their mind that there will be a second chance, that the lost relationship can be revived, that there is the possibility of a new future together.  It's keeping hope alive, sometimes quite unrealistically.  It can be creating a fantasy that is fed with each physical connection.

This arrangement also prevents people from moving forward with their lives.  It prevents people from finding and connecting successfully with a new partner.  And if the couple are not only clinging to this old sexual relationship, but also trying to bring new partners into the mix at the same time -- whether openly, or in secret -- it opens a whole new can of worms.  Most individuals are not going to want to start a relationship with someone who is still closely tied to their ex, and especially when this still includes a physical relationship.  It's too crowded, it's an invasion of personal space.

Let's talk about "the future"...

Our future is not set in stone, it's fluid, and it keeps evolving according to choices that we make and directions that we take.  Always remember this, that whatever answer you are given with any form of divination, there is always the probability that people's decisions and deliberate changes that they make in their lives, or ideas, or plans can alter the future.  So often people seem to resign themselves to a divination outcome as being the last and final word on what's going to happen in their life.  It is not.  It only shows you a picture of how things are NOW, at this moment.

  • And now that we've got that out of the way, let's see what the cards have to say about it:



What the cards are telling me at this moment, as shown with the five of cups, which I drew as I was asking your question out loud:  

Will I have a relationship with my ex-girlfriend again this year?  

No, there does not appear to be another relationship with this ex-partner occurring during this year.

The cards drawn for this reading are amazingly similar to a general reading I did that pointed to a relationship where one party was going to be able to move on fairly easily, with an optimistic outlook for the future; and the other partner was stuck in the past, shackled to all kinds of negative emotions and thoughts.  You might want to check this reading out, just in case there is a connection, on any level, here for you.

The cards I laid for you today speak of great change and transformations coming, and some of them may come with little or no warning.  The cards also speak of an intense voyeur to all of this, perhaps a third party -- another romantic interest, a sibling, or friend who has some sort of vested interest in the outcome between you and your ex-girlfriend.

The final thought I'm pulling here, is once you get past and accept the idea of a conclusion to this connection, you may discover a renewed enthusiasm for some things in life that you have been neglecting.  Once a final decision has been made and the emotional and physical cords cut, you may also (much to your surprise) experience a feeling of freedom and lightheartedness. I don't think you realize how heavy and preoccupied the energy around you is at this time.


Wednesday, July 13, 2022

The Anatomy of a Tarot Reading

 


My Notes & Scratchings (automatic writing):

King/pentacles:

Someone "at the top" or "behind the scenes".

One part of a couple attempting to move on from a relationship, the other partner trying to hold them back.


The Tower (reversed):

Causing a fiasco, or directing a fiasco.

It upended something previously stable.

He's good at manifesting what he wants/He's good at making you believe he can manifest what YOU want.


Ten/wands (reversed):

Either feeling no sense of responsibility, or avoiding or passing off responsibility.

Contact and interaction with him will lead to huge and unexpected changes in your life.


The Magician & Death


Someone is working so hard to manifest change, and someone else is trying so hard to hold them back.



This is the tale of a couple, most likely a married couple that is no more.  The cards don't tell me specifically about their life together, because that's no longer the point.  What's past is water under the bridge.  The point is the here and now, the point is their separation, or their divorce, and the energy and interactions that are happening as we speak.

One party is calmly trying to pick up the pieces and move on constructively, in anticipation of building a new life with new beginnings and new opportunities.  There is a hopeful feeling of looking to the future, an excitement about new things "right around the corner".  This individual is infused with the bright energy of "happiness in the face of great change".  The ultimate optimist.

The other party to this couple is seething, angry, steeped in jealousy, regret, the loss of control.  This person is not looking to the future but is stuck in the past, thinking over all the "what if's", seeking vainly for answers and miracles that could fix what's broken, looking for ways to keep their former partner in a state of limbo.  And in this energy, this person feels they can keep the future at bay.  They seriously believe this.  It feels so dark, so dark that it goes beyond the idea of a pessimist.

  • The cards are giving me this advice:


To the optimist:  detach completely from your former partner, their connection is poisonous and will only prevent you from rebuilding your life and finding new happiness.  Focus on YOU.  Focus on your plans and goals and dreams, and make practical preparations to carry you through to all these things.  It's okay for you to be happy.  It's okay for you to feel positive about your future, as you should.  Leave all negativity behind and follow the sunshine... you deserve it.

To the King of Pentacles:  seek therapy.  You need to talk to someone.  You need to talk to someone to regain a healthy focus on your life and the situation that you're in now.  You need to talk to someone who can help you work through all these negative feelings that will hold you back and prevent you from building a new and healthy life for yourself.  You need to talk to someone who can teach you how to get in touch with positive energy.  You need to leave the darkness behind... and you need to leave your former partner alone.





21 Summer Memories

 




Me, my sister Kelly,
& our pony Dynamite

circa late 1960s



1. The smell of hot pavement damp with rain.

2. Cool green grass beneath my grandmother’s apple trees.

3. Chocolate ice-cream cones from the little shop around the corner.

4. Short pixie haircuts and matching short outfits.

5. Panting dogs, lazy cats.

6. Summer storms coming– black angry skies, rumbling thunder, and those first large hesitant drops of rain.

7. Watermelon

8. Grandma’s large old picnic basket with a complete set of brightly colored plates, cups, and utensils.

9. Kool-Aid in a large clear pitcher, with enough sugar to kill a horse; and iced-tea.

10. Fans humming at night.

11. A cool pillowcase turning warm, till you turn it over to another cool side.

12. Hot cement on bare feet.

13. The smell of tomato vines.

14. Early morning sunshine falling across the flower beds.

15. The fishy smell of Lake Mitchell and the winding tree-lined gravel roads around it.

16. Cool linoleum floors.

17. Silver nail polish

18. Bicycling everywhere, on a new girls’ blue bike (circa 1968).

19. Silver moonlight falling on my grandmother’s pear tree, so bright it was hard to believe it was night.

20. My grandmother’s turquoise & white checked table cloth used for family dinners.

21. Laying lazily on my bed on hot afternoons, in front of an open window, with the elm tree right outside, reading old copies of Nancy Drew mysteries, Ann Sheridan in the ‘Sign of the Sphinx‘, Louisa May Alcott’s ‘Eight Cousins’, and the adventures of flight nurse Cherry Ames.




Originally published at my blog, Magickal Connections
July 2011


Tuesday, July 12, 2022

Have you heard of Victoria Woodhull?

 


Woodhull, Victoria (1838–1927)


American advocate of free love, women's suffrage and workers' rights, one of the most notorious women of her era, who lectured, operated a stock brokerage, ran for the U.S. presidency, precipitated a scandalous adultery trial, and flaunted Victorian social and sexual mores throughout most of her life .
 
Name variations: Victoria Woodhull-Martin; Victoria Claflin; "The Woodhull" and "The Wicked Woodhull." 

Born Victoria Claflin on September 23, 1838, in Homer, Ohio; died on June 9, 1927, at her estate in Worcester-shire, England; daughter of Reuben Buckman Claflin (a gristmill operator) and Roxanna (Hummel) Claflin; sister of Tennessee Claflin (1846–1923) and Utica Claflin Brooker (d. 1873); mostly self-taught; married Canning Woodhull, c. 1853; married Colonel James Harvey Blood, in 1866; married John Martin, in 1882; children: (first marriage) Byron Woodhull and Zulu Maude Woodhull.

Promoted by their father, toured as a clairvoyant with her sister Tennessee; moved with husband Canning Woodhull and children to New York City; while touring as a spiritualist, met Colonel Blood, an advocate of free love, whom she married (1866); with her sister Tennie, opened the first women-owned brokerage firm on Wall Street (1870); announced her candidacy for the presidency (April 1870); founded Wood-hull & Claflin's Weekly (May 1870); addressed the House Judiciary Committee regarding women's right to vote (January 1871); publicly declared herself a practitioner of free love (November 1871); nominated by the Equal Rights Party as candidate for the U.S. presidency, with Frederick Douglass as vice-president (1872): in a direct challenge to the Victorian standards of morality of the day, revealed the extramarital affair of the Reverend Henry Ward Beecher and Elizabeth Tilton, leading to charges of criminal libel and mailing obscene literature (November 1872); moved with family to England, with probable financial support of the heir of Commodore Cornelius Vanderbilt (1877); married millionaire John Martin (1882); became a philanthropist on behalf of agriculture and education.

On the evening of November 20, 1871, Victoria Woodhull waited to walk on stage at New York City's Steinway Hall and speak on the subject of free love, wondering whether the Reverend Henry Ward Beecher would accept her challenge for him to appear as the introductory speaker. By all accounts, the scene a few days earlier, when she had extended the invitation, had been dramatic. A fiery evangelical minister, Beecher was the brother of the author of Uncle Tom's Cabin, Harriet Beecher Stowe , and pastor of Plymouth Church in Brooklyn. Privately, Beecher was widely rumored to have had many affairs with women of his parish, but from the pulpit he had publicly denounced sexual activity outside the institution of matrimony as immoral. In the meeting, which had included Theodore Tilton, a current lover of Woodhull's and formerly Beecher's best friend, Woodhull had threatened to expose Beecher unless he agreed to validate her views by introducing her. Years later Tilton described how Beecher, with tears streaming down his face, begged Woodhull to "let him off," on the grounds that associating himself with a leader of the free-love movement would cause him to lose his reputation, if not his entire parish. "Mr. Beecher," Woodhull replied, "if I am compelled to go onto that platform alone, I shall begin by telling the audience why I am alone and why you are not with me."

Beecher did not appear, but at the last moment Tilton did, offering his arm to lead Wood-hull on stage. As a member of Beecher's Plymouth Church, editor of religious and liberal newspapers, author, and titular head of the National Women's Suffrage Association, Tilton had the credentials to enhance Woodhull's stature as a speaker, and he gave her a grand introduction.

Her speech had not gone far when Woodhull declared, "Yes! I am a free lover!," and was met with hisses and howls. "I have an inalienable, constitutional, and natural right to love whom I may," she continued, "to love as long or as short a period as I can, to change that love every day if I please! And with that right neither you, nor any law you can frame, have any right to interfere." Tilton, like the audience, was astounded by this admission, which had not been planned. That night she would refrain from exposing Beecher (who had recently ended an affair with Tilton's wife), but the speech was to be a singular milestone in a highly controversial public life.

Victoria Woodhull … has faced and dared men to call her names that make women shudder.

~ Elizabeth Cady Stanton


The childhood of Victoria Claflin Woodhull had prepared her for a life of publicity and drama. Born on September 23, 1838, to Reuben Buckman Claflin and Roxanna Claflin in Homer, Ohio, she was the fifth of seven children. Her father ran a gristmill and had a penchant for gambling, scheming, lawsuits, and any other opportunity to get rich quick. Her mother, quick-witted with a fiery temper, and inclined toward clairvoyance, instilled in her children a sense of familial loyalty that would lead Victoria to provide financial support for many of her family members in later years. An ardent follower of evangelical religion, Roxanna brought her children to camp meetings in the woods led by traveling preachers, including the respectable and invigorating revivals made famous by the Reverend Lyman Beecher (the father of Victoria's later adversary). Drawn into a state of religious ecstasy, Roxanna would join others at the meetings in whirling and speaking in tongues.

Victoria grew up imitating preachers, gathering other children around her to captivate them with her fiery preaching. If she failed to hold their attention with shouts of "Sinners repent! Repent or know the burning flames of hell!," she sometimes shifted to gory tales of Indian scalpings. She also showed signs of what was considered clairvoyance, playing childhood games with the spirits of her deceased baby sisters, and asserting that she saw the devil. From an early age, she was especially close to her sister Tennessee Claflin , who shared her gift for "second sight," which their father saw as a golden opportunity. In an era when séances, replete with raps on walls and moving furniture, were immensely popular, Buck Claflin became "Dr. R.B. Claflin, American King of Cancers," and took his two daughters on a road show where they drew audiences as healers with psychic powers.

Because of these entertaining and profitable activities, Victoria reached the age of 15 with only a few years of education. She was blossoming into a beauty, however, with large blue eyes, delicate features, and rose-petal skin. Before turning 16, she married Dr. Canning Woodhull, a well-born and well-educated man who soon proved to be an alcoholic and a womanizer. As a physician, he had difficulty maintaining a practice, and after the birth of their son Byron, Woodhull convinced Canning to move the family to San Francisco, where she became the breadwinner as a cigar girl and actress.

Her sister Tennie had meanwhile moved to New York City with their father, and from San Francisco Woodhull felt she heard Tennie's voice "call out" to her. In 1860, the Woodhulls packed up and moved to New York, where Tennie proved to be untroubled. Perhaps Woodhull's impulse came out of her own need for her family. In New York, the sisters set up a new practice as "magnetic healers" and spiritualists, with the Woodhulls and the Claflins all living in a single hectic household. That year, Victoria's young son Byron fell from a second-story window. Though he recovered after lying near death for several days, he was left severely and permanently brain damaged. Nursing her son, and caring for Canning through his bouts with alcohol, Woodhull continued to see clients, and in 1861 her life was brightened by the birth of a daughter, Zulu Maude Woodhull .

In 1864, the need for new clientele prompted the clan to move to Cincinnati. Tennie and another sister, Utica Claflin Brooker , were by now as attractive as Victoria, and all were vibrant like their mother, with passions that extended beyond religious zeal. After charges of illicit sexual activities and scandals forced the group from their home, they resettled in Chicago, where the pattern was repeated. By this time, Woodhull had been all but deserted by Canning, who came home only when he needed money. Given the mores of the times, the relations of the sisters with men may have been sexual or merely flirtatious, but they were shocking enough to their neighbors to give the appearance of prostitution and combined with the family's generally raucous behavior, caused them to be chased out of their homes more than once.

The two sisters were on the road again as clairvoyants when Woodhull met Colonel James Harvey Blood in St. Louis. He was a courteous, educated, and respected man, and a believer in the doctrine of free love. Victoria now had a name and a theory for the lifestyle that she and her sisters had been leading.

In an era when divorce was extremely rare and difficult for women to obtain in most states, advocates of free love viewed marriage as an institution that could trap people in unhappy lives. In their view, marriage should be recognized as a social partnership, and if some element—such as sexual gratification or companionship—were missing in the relationship, then spouses should be allowed to find that element through loving more than one individual. As Woodhull would later write, "Copulation without love is prostitution."

Through her acquaintance with Blood, Woodhull became highly articulate about her views of free love.  Her own life had taught her to despise the hypocrisy of a sexual double standard that allowed men to engage in extramarital sex without social repercussions (and without fear of, or responsibility for, pregnancy). Almost everywhere, a man could divorce a wife who had committed adultery much more easily than a woman could obtain a divorce from an adulterous husband. Respectable women could not admit publicly to having sexual desire. Respectable men supported the same lie, even while having mistresses, frequenting houses of prostitution, or profiting from the ownership of buildings that housed prostitutes. Yet prostitutes were shunned by society for their profession (then legal in many communities and not widely outlawed until the end of the century).

Among a number of radical beliefs that gained hold during the 19th century, the doctrine of free love was seen by many as the most dangerous, presenting a serious threat to the social order by desanctifying the family unit. If people were allowed to have sex with anyone they pleased, who would take responsibility for the children? Furthermore, venereal disease—often spread through prostitution—was commonplace, and had no cure; and there were no reliable methods of birth control. For advocates of the movement, these social ills were precisely the reasons for needing a change in sexual standards. According to their argument, if human sexuality were more openly discussed, and people were not forced to deny their desires, prostitution would be unnecessary, women would be exploited less, and    lives could be saved, because sexually transmitted disease would be recognized and treated more quickly.

Advocacy of free love was not advocacy of sexual licentiousness. Instead, men and women were encouraged to choose sexual partners based on mutual feelings rather than according to the dictates of church and state; to the extent that individuals acted responsibly and openly, marriage laws would not be needed.


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As a spiritualist, Woodhull found the movement compatible with her belief that the soul transcended the boundaries of the material world represented by marriage laws. Such a view also resembled anarchy in many ways, and many followers of free love were anarchists, at a time when anarchy was considered a threat to the nation. Politically, Woodhull's outlook was actually closer to early communism, and she became a member of the Marxist International Workingmen's Association (from which she was later expelled). Clearly, the free-love doctrine carried some fiercely political undertones.

By 1866, Victoria Woodhull had divorced her first husband and married James Blood. They settled with Tennie and others of her family in New York City, where Woodhull established a salon attended by the brightest and most articulate radicals of the day, who met to socialize and spar intellectually. The prosperity of the family was greatly increased after Tennie met the New York millionaire Commodore Cornelius Vanderbilt, then a 76-year-old widower whose wife Sophia Johnson Vanderbilt had just died in 1868. Sought after for her powers of spiritual healing, Tennie, in this case, turned her "magnetic powers" to arousal, and she became Vanderbilt's lover. When the two sisters approached Vanderbilt for financial advice, he became indispensable, advising them at first on business strategy, and later backing them in the opening of a brokerage office, Woodhull, Claflin & Co., the first run by women on Wall Street. The firm was an immense success, and the sisters were referred to by the New York Herald as the "Bewitching Brokers."

With this prosperity, the sisters were able to support their parents, a sister and her husband, and even Canning Woodhull all in one large home. Although many were scandalized, Wood-hull found the presence of her first husband, as the father of her children, entirely appropriate and made her reasoning clear: "Dr. Woodhull, being sick, ailing and incapable of self-support, I felt it my duty to myself and to human nature that he should be cared for…. My present husband, Colonel Blood, not only approves of this charge, but cooperates in it. I esteem it one of the most virtuous acts of my life."
   
Woodhull gained fame as a stunning conversationalist among the intellectuals and politicians who frequented her salon. Two who were charmed by her attractiveness, intellect, and flair for making ideas dramatic were the brilliant Stephen Pearl Andrews and Congressman Benjamin F. Butler of Massachusetts. Both were sympathizers with the free-love doctrine, as well as supporters of women's right to vote, and schooled Woodhull in the limitations of women's legal and political rights.

Salon discussions frequently centered on the hypocrisies of American social and political life, as freethinkers argued for nothing less than a social revolution. Intent on exposing injustices between genders, classes, and races, Woodhull, Tennie, and Blood took every opportunity to call attention to cases of individual rights being denied. On one occasion, the sisters arrived to dine at Delmonico's, the famous restaurant near Wall Street, and were denied service because the establishment followed a rule common to many restaurants, holding that ladies were not welcome without male escorts after 6 pm. Tennie went to the door and waved to the cab driver waiting with a carriage for them outside. The man was seated with them, and the women ordered soup for three, breaking the conventional codes of both gender and rank, as Delmonico's was forced into serving two independent women and an embarrassed working-class man.

In May 1870, the sisters began the publication of Woodhull & Claflin's Weekly, with a masthead that read "Don't Fail to Read the Lady Broker's Paper! The Organ of the Most Advanced Thought and Purpose in the World!" The paper lasted until June 1876, advertising their business and spreading the ideas that flourished in their salon, with its opinions and exposés about free love, workers' rights, political scandals, and social injustice. It also became a platform for Wood-hull's presidential candidacy, announced that April. Her plan was to run as an independent, giving her two years to publicize her ideas before the national presidential campaign.

Of all the ideas she brought to the public, Woodhull was most dedicated to free love. But once she grasped how few legal and political rights women actually had, she also made "Votes for Women" her personal mission and inspired many gatherings about women's rights. On January 11, 1871, she appeared before the House Judiciary Committee to deliver a memorial on the topic of woman suffrage. A "memorial" was a speech that was printed, circulated, and personally presented by a citizen before Congress in order to persuade it to enact a law. Since no woman had ever before been recognized by a congressional committee, Woodhull's appearance caused a huge stir. That same morning, the liberal suffragists of the National Woman's Suffrage Association (NWSA) had planned the opening of their annual convention in Washington, but Woodhull's appearance threatened to upstage them; many in the movement also feared that Woodhull's radical advocacy of free love would give suffragists a bad name if the public associated her position with votes for women. After much arguing, the NWSA postponed its morning session and sent a delegation, including Susan B. Anthony , to hear Woodhull.




Woodhull was by this time a brilliant orator. When she spoke her face brightened, her whole body seemed to communicate her words to the crowd, and her speeches always built up momentum. That day, her argument was sharp and clear, invoking the 14th and 15th amendments as proof of women's right to the vote. Not surprisingly, the congressional majority report written in response to the speech was not favorable, but the minority report—signed by Benjamin Butler—issued the strongest official argument to date in favor of women's rights under the Constitution.

The suffragists, meanwhile, were so impressed that they invited Woodhull to repeat her memorial before their convention as the keynote speaker. Leaders of NWSA, including Susan B. Anthony, Isabella Beecher Hooker (sister of Henry Ward Beecher and Harriet Beecher Stowe), and Elizabeth Cady Stanton , would continue to defend Woodhull's beliefs, and to welcome the publicity she brought to the issue of women's suffrage.

But the number of Woodhull's enemies also grew. Harriet Beecher Stowe attacked her through a comic novel then being serialized, parodying Woodhull as a brainless free lover who spoke about women's rights without knowing what they were. Catharine Beecher , Harriet's older sister, wrote prolifically on the subject of women's role within family and education and was famous for her efforts to gain respect for women's work.  She lectured Woodhull about morality and threatened to pull her down personally if she continued her mission of promoting free love.

Family conflicts also created bad publicity. When Woodhull's mother took James Blood to court, claiming that he was spending money improperly, the press published stories revealed on the witness stand about life in the Claflin home, including lovers who visited Victoria and Tennie, and Tennie's relationship with Vanderbilt. The public was scandalized, Vanderbilt's advice ceased, and the sisters began to lose money on Wall Street.

What galled Woodhull was to have to defend her own character publicly, while others who lived similarly were held up as pillars of morality. Her outrage grew when she learned that the minister Henry Ward Beecher was exercising free love privately while his sisters condemned her publicly. Woodhull learned of the affair through Pauline Wright Davis , a fellow suffragist and friend of Elizabeth Tilton , who had told Davis of her anguish over the recently ended romance. Lib Tilton had felt compelled to confess her affair to her husband, Theodore Tilton, who had been the Reverend Beecher's closest friend until that day, and Theodore had since become obsessed with thoughts of revenge. On the afternoon during which Davis heard Lib Tilton's grief-stricken story, Davis met with Woodhull, pledging "not to leave Brooklyn until I had stripped the mask from that infamous, hypocritical scoundrel, Beecher."

Woodhull debated whether to reveal the Beecher-Tilton affair, aware of the harm that the scandal could cause to the spouses and children involved. Testing the waters, she sent vague letters to the editors of New York newspapers, alluding to a love scandal involving "teachers of eminence," which led to her first meeting with Theodore Tilton. In the ensuing months, Tilton edited and published a biography of Woodhull, and a romance developed, fueling the desires of them both to see Beecher "unmasked."

But in 1871, after her speech at Steinway Hall, the forces of contemporary social propriety rallied strongly against her. Woodhull and her family were evicted from their mansion, ending her salon; the brokerage firm was closed, and all financial advice had ceased. Yet she received more speaking invitations than ever.

In 1872, members of the NWSA organized the Equal Rights Party. Woodhull was nominated at its convention to run for president of the United States and Frederick Douglass (who was not present) as vice-president. Suffragists were soon divided over whether to throw support behind this new party or work for the established ones. Susan B. Anthony believed Woodhull was too involved with her own agenda, and that her many causes were too radical to be useful to the suffrage movement, but Elizabeth Cady Stanton remained a Woodhull supporter for the rest of her life.

As more suffragists distanced themselves from her and the free-love doctrine, Woodhull lost speaking engagements and began to despair. Finally, at a speech before the National Association of Spiritualists she revealed the Beecher-Tilton affair, and published an account of it in her Weekly, leading to indictments against Woodhull and Tennie for criminal libel and charges of sending obscene literature through the mail. Despite the several weeks the sisters spent in jail, a judge biased against them and hours of testimony about their private life. They were found not guilty. Following a mock investigation held at Plymouth Church, led by the closest friends of the Reverend Beecher to "prove" that he was innocent of immoral acts, Theodore Tilton filed a lawsuit against the minister for willfully alienating him from the affections of his wife, resulting in one of the most sensational trials of the century. Tickets for a courtroom seat were scalped to the highest bidders, and refreshment booths and souvenir stands appeared outside of the courthouse. Although the jury ruled against Tilton, the ultimate result, according to Stanton, was a strong pull "toward making the standard of tolerated behavior of men and women equal." Finally, people were speaking more openly about sexuality.

Woodhull was not asked to testify at the trial, and in fact was retreating by then from the sexuality spotlight. As she and her mother began turning to the Bible, then toward Catholicism, for new mystic explanations, Colonel Blood had no place in her life. They divorced in 1876, the same year that publication of the Weekly ceased. In 1877, she was barely supporting herself through lectures and spiritual healing, when Commodore Vanderbilt died, leaving the bulk of his millions to his eldest son. Woodhull apparently received a stroke of good fortune when the remainder of the Vanderbilt family planned to contest the will and to call Woodhull and Tennie into court as proof of the Commodore's incompetency. Shortly afterward, Woodhull, her children, Tennie, and their mother departed to England, where they lived in comfort for some years.  It was assumed that the eldest Vanderbilt had safeguarded his inheritance by providing for their new life.

In England, Woodhull continued to lecture about the Bible, spiritualism, and sexuality, but with a significant difference evident in her point of view. Now when she spoke about "The Human Body, the Temple of God," the emphasis was shifted from sexual activity to consideration of the body within the context of marriage and responsibility. At one such lecture, she met the conservative banker and millionaire, John Biddulph Martin, who fell in love with her. After an extensive courtship, they were married in 1882.




In England, Woodhull embraced humanitarian causes. She took frequent trips back to the United States, and during her courtship with Martin became involved with the small Humanitarian Party, which nominated her as its presidential candidate in 1892. Settled with her new husband on their country estate in Worcestershire, Woodhull took up new interests with her usual missionary zeal, including new methods of agriculture. After the death of her husband, she divided up one of the estate farms and rented small shares to women where they could learn farming techniques. The estate included a school for experimenting with the latest educational methods. Still living each day to the fullest, she established an annual agricultural show, entertained the Prince of Wales, and worked fervently during World War I for the war effort. She owned one of the first automobiles in England and always had her chauffeur drive as fast as possible through the countryside. Hoping to cheat death, she slept upright in the last years of her life. In 1927, at age 88, she died in her night chair.

Victoria Woodhull perhaps summed up her own life best to a reporter after losing the 1892 election, when she explained why she had not expected to win: "The truth is that I am too many years ahead of this age and the exalted views and objects of humanitarianism can scarcely be grasped as yet by the unenlightened mind of the average man." It is a statement hard to dispute.




Sources:


D'Emilio, John, and Estelle B. Freedman. Intimate Matters: A History of Sexuality in America. NY: Harper & Row, 1988.


Johnston, Johanna. Mrs. Satan: The Incredible Saga of Victoria C. Woodhull. NY: Putnam, 1967.

Sears, Hal D. The Sex Radicals: Free Love in High Victorian America. Lawrence, KS: The Regents Press of Kansas, 1977.

Suggested reading:


Gabriel, Mary. Notorious Victoria: The Life of Victoria Woodhull, Uncensored. Algonquin, 1997.

Sachs, Emanie. The Terrible Siren. NY: Harper & Bros., 1928.

Tilton, Theodore. The Life of Victoria Claflin Woodhull. NY: Golden Age, 1871.
collections:

Books and papers at the Sterling Memorial Library and the Beinecke Rare Book Library, Yale University; files, papers, and newspapers at the New York Historical Society Library; books and newspapers, New York Public Library.

Susan Gonda , Instructor of History at Grossmont College, San Diego, California



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